After a rocky night where he woke up to use the washroom & ended up falling and scraping his knee, elbow & wrist, he was tired and emotional and tender this morning. He wanted out of here as soon as he was done breakfast & asked my Dad to drive us back to Peggy’s Cove again. I asked him why he liked it there so much and he said, “I just love the way it feels there. And how it makes me feel.” So again we sat on the observation deck, listening to the waves crash, and taking deep deep breaths of the salty air.
He decided he was hungry & wanted to go to the restaurant there. So he had a huge breakfast sandwich & (much to my chagrin) some hashbrowns, but he really enjoyed just being out & eating plenty. We had planned on sitting back outside again when we were done but a big storm came rolling in & so we decided to head back to the Airbnb.
He was tired when we got back but couldn’t nap. We watched a movie together and called Mitch and Luke back home. As nice as it is to see them it is like pouring salt on an open wound & Lochlan’s deep sadness sunk in. Just like yesterday we watched some home videos & it made him hopeful for a life beyond this diagnosis.
He found some hair on his pillow today, & I’m not sure if it’s the chemo or if he just rolled over & pulled some out but he decided he wanted to cut his hair short (like his favourite movie star Tom Holland). He didn’t want to go to a barber or salon, & the air bnb only had a pair of kids school scissors but I gave it my best effort.. definitely some clean up to do when we get home where I have better tools. But he likes it so that’s all that matters.
It was a big day for him today. But thankfully we had no steroid rage or fear outbursts… just sadness. Again, we wait with bated breath on what his bloodwork tomorrow shows us. I don’t know if either of us can handle having to stay away from home for another day. Mentally and emotionally I don’t know if we’re strong enough to handle bad news. So, please send all the good vibes & prayers that all looks good tomorrow so we can finally go home after a very long 24 days away.
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